Sunday, October 12, 2008
I Have A Confession To Make!!!!!!
I have a confession to make.A confession that I am not ashamed of.A confession that I always wanted to make.A confession of a confused grown up boy.
1)I am a Catholic and I never been to a confession before since my baptism 2 years ago.If you are a Catholic,you would understand how serious is this matter.I could easily reserve myself a decent place in hell....OK OK I know God is merciful but still, I had betrayed my relationship with Christ.I still remembered that faithful Friday evening during the last Lent season,without having any knowledge that the Penitential Rite was taking place,I happily followed my friends to the church thinking that it was only an ordinary evening mass.Guess what?I got freaked out when someone told me there will be a Penitential Rite after the evening mass.So,I was left in a dilemma,to go or not to go,to go or not to go,and the questions kept lingering in my mind.I could sense the devils were working so hard to distract me.In the end,the devils won over this sinful son of Adam.There had been numerous attempt of me going for confessiom,promises after promises made,sunday after sunday,month after month but remain in vain.I am tainted with mortal sins.I am really serious about it.I am not crazy,I am not ashamed and I am not trying to be paranoid.I am still afraid to approach the confessional.
2)I did not go to Church for many times whenever I am back in my hometown.I repeat,only when I am in my hometown but i would diligently go to church if I am in KL no matter how early is the mass or no matter how difficult for me to get to the church,I would still go.The reason is not that I could not wake up in the morning but just another attitude problem that I have been struggling for quite sometime.I hate my hometown parish,I hate the people in the church,I hate everything single things that are related to the parish.Most of all,I hate being lonely sitting at the pew.
3)I have picked up the ART of LYING as my favourite pastime.I love telling lies.I tell lies every single day.I lie to my friends,my lecturers,my family members and even to strangers.Lying just give me a sense of satisfaction.WHY?cause I hate people knowing what I am doing or thinking.e/g I would lie to my friends saying that I went to the toilet during the break when actually I was in the library studying.As I mentioned earlier,I hate it when someone knows what I am doing.I feel insecure.
4)I fail to understand the people around me.I discriminate those whom I think not worthy to be in my present without realising that I am equally unworthy.I love to gossip,raise up my voice unnecessarily,backstabbing and etc etc etc.My close friends would understand this very well if they read this.I am such a hypocrite and an egocentric guy,claiming to be Christ follower when I am such a #*%$^@.
5)I am not a filial son.I always make my parents worry about me.No further elaboration....sigh
6)I have a faith and personal crisis.You would understand if you are in the same boat as me.No further elaboration.
7)I am sexually deprived.HELP ME!!!!!
In conclusion,................?
1)I am a Catholic and I never been to a confession before since my baptism 2 years ago.If you are a Catholic,you would understand how serious is this matter.I could easily reserve myself a decent place in hell....OK OK I know God is merciful but still, I had betrayed my relationship with Christ.I still remembered that faithful Friday evening during the last Lent season,without having any knowledge that the Penitential Rite was taking place,I happily followed my friends to the church thinking that it was only an ordinary evening mass.Guess what?I got freaked out when someone told me there will be a Penitential Rite after the evening mass.So,I was left in a dilemma,to go or not to go,to go or not to go,and the questions kept lingering in my mind.I could sense the devils were working so hard to distract me.In the end,the devils won over this sinful son of Adam.There had been numerous attempt of me going for confessiom,promises after promises made,sunday after sunday,month after month but remain in vain.I am tainted with mortal sins.I am really serious about it.I am not crazy,I am not ashamed and I am not trying to be paranoid.I am still afraid to approach the confessional.
2)I did not go to Church for many times whenever I am back in my hometown.I repeat,only when I am in my hometown but i would diligently go to church if I am in KL no matter how early is the mass or no matter how difficult for me to get to the church,I would still go.The reason is not that I could not wake up in the morning but just another attitude problem that I have been struggling for quite sometime.I hate my hometown parish,I hate the people in the church,I hate everything single things that are related to the parish.Most of all,I hate being lonely sitting at the pew.
3)I have picked up the ART of LYING as my favourite pastime.I love telling lies.I tell lies every single day.I lie to my friends,my lecturers,my family members and even to strangers.Lying just give me a sense of satisfaction.WHY?cause I hate people knowing what I am doing or thinking.e/g I would lie to my friends saying that I went to the toilet during the break when actually I was in the library studying.As I mentioned earlier,I hate it when someone knows what I am doing.I feel insecure.
4)I fail to understand the people around me.I discriminate those whom I think not worthy to be in my present without realising that I am equally unworthy.I love to gossip,raise up my voice unnecessarily,backstabbing and etc etc etc.My close friends would understand this very well if they read this.I am such a hypocrite and an egocentric guy,claiming to be Christ follower when I am such a #*%$^@.
5)I am not a filial son.I always make my parents worry about me.No further elaboration....sigh
6)I have a faith and personal crisis.You would understand if you are in the same boat as me.No further elaboration.
7)I am sexually deprived.HELP ME!!!!!
In conclusion,................?
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